Give Up On You

I don't understand why I have to be with you for a long time. I love you but I can never feel the same way from you. I feel, you never loved me. You're too busy with your own world, and always ignored me. You know? love is not just a word, love is not just a seduction, but love is an action and of the action that you did it I could feel the sincerity you. Once again, I never feel that way.

I always pray that I always brought closer to one of the best that God has given to me. Probably why we have to separate from each other, because I'm not the best for you and you are not the best for me. We end up a few days before we celebrate something special according to me, and maybe for you it's a celebration of something ordinary.

I'm always thinking about you and our relationship. This relationship is like a one-way relationship, only myself had a significant role in it. I'm tired. This is the best way, I hope someday you get the right person. Sorry for everything ...

Magelang - Jogja Trip

at Wonderful Borobudur Temple <3 <3

Next, Keraton Kesultanan Yogyakarta!

Paris!!! What?! Parangtritis Beach woohoo

Thanks Power Rangers of Peace..... :")

KEPO!!!!

Beberapa waktu lalu, kayaknya hidup gue penuh dengan orang-orang yang kepo. Mungkin kalo mereka kepo, tapi gue gak tau gue sih oke oke aja. Tapi kalo mereka kepo terus nanya ulang ke gue, itu gue agak risih aja. Gak tau kenapa. Waktu itu ada yang kepo, soal mantan gue. Ya, twitter gue dipantau gitu, dia view orang-orang yang sering mention-an sama gue, terus nanya ulang di bbm, parahnya pake di capture. Segitu penasarannya sama hidup gue? berasa apa gitu ya ditanya-tanya masalah pribadi yang gue aja gak terlalu kenal dia siapa.

Terus yang kedua, orang yang emang gak suka sama gua, gara-gara dulu cowoknya deket sama gua waktu mereka putus. Dia sering banget kirim messege di facebook, nanya soal cowoknya "masih berhubungan ga sama gue?" tapi jarang gue bales, hampir gapernah gue tanggepin. Males juga nanggepin orang begitu. Tapi dia kok jadi ngejudge gue yang macem-macem, hasil kepo-an dari twitter dan bloh gue yang lama kali yah? terus dia kirim pesen gitu di facebook. Duh........ gue gak mau ngeblock orang itu, karena tadinya ya gue anggep santai, tapi setelah kaya gitu, daripada nambah kesel, mending gue block aja facebooknya. Terus ternyata dia masih mantau twitter gua, kalo twitter sengaja gak gue protect, ya terserah deh sekarang dia mau ngomong apa tentang gue, gue aminin aja.

Se-cemburu cemburunya gue sama pacar gue, gue gak pernah tuh cari ribut sama temennya, atau siapanya. Lah buat apaan juga. Dari gua SMA, sampe Kuliah masalahnya engga selesai-selesai. Kaga jelas banget dah ah.

Dah, sekian dulu curhat gua. kapan-kapan gua sambung lagi.

Regards,

Refina

Confusion

This time I'll tell you about a song that I think this song is very interesting and contained in its lyrics have a very profound sense, especially for me. The song is titled "Sewindu" by Tulus. This jazzy song genre. Initially, Bayu who told me to listen this song because he felt I had changed, and he broke. But actually, I don't like what he thinks.

On the other hand, I experienced what he felt. I was always with him.. however, because there is someone new, I was forgotten and thrown away. Yes, I was pretty sick! The following lyrics Sewindu by Tulus:

Sudah sewindu ku di dekatmu

Ada di setiap pagi, di sepanjang harimu

Tak mungkin bila engkau tak tahu

Bila ku menyimpan rasa yang ku benam sejak lama

Setiap pagi ku menunggu di depan pintu

Siapkan senyum terbaikku agar cerah harimu

Cukup bagiku melihatmu tersenyum manis

Di setiap pagimu, siangmu, malammu 

Sesaat dia datang pesona bagai pangeran

Dan beri kau harapan bualan cinta di masa depan

Dan kau lupakan aku semua usahaku

Semua pagi kita, semua malam kita 

Oh tak akan lagi ku menunggumu di depan pintu

Dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu 

Setiap pagi ku menunggu di depan pintu

Siapkan senyum terbaikku agar cerah harimu

Cukup bagiku melihatmu tersenyum manis

Di setiap pagimu, siangmu, malammu 

Sesaat dia datang pesona bagai pangeran

Dan beri kau harapan bualan cinta di masa depan

Dan kau lupakan aku semua usahaku

Semua pagi kita, semua malam kita 

Oh tak akan lagi ku menunggumu di depan pintu

Dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu

Oh tak akan lagi ku menunggumu di depan pintu

Dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu 

Jujur memang sakit di hati

Bila kini nyatanya engkau memilih dia

Takkan lagi ku sebodoh ini

Larut di dalam angan-angan tanpa tujuan 

Oh tak akan lagi ku menunggumu di depan pintu

Dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu

Oh tak akan lagi ku menunggumu di depan pintu

Dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu

Enjoy This Song......... :-----)

EURO 2012

Last few weeks, I stayed up late. Yessssssssssss! it's all because of EURO 2012. I would have stayed up late to watch all football matches, especially when my favorite team play, this is it ITALY. I really like this team because they play very good and as we know that ITALY is the winner of the 2006 World Cup champion. ITALY has key player, namely Andrea Pirlo. I love his style while playing football. Although it includes the old player, but his stamina and spirit remains the same as other young players. His free-kick while meeting with Croatia is very very cool, one of the world's best shot! I really hope ITALY can get through to final. amiiiiiiiin

okay, what do you do while watching Euro? activities that I did while watching the euro are.......

1. Updating BBM

2. Updating twitter

3. Eating peanuts

4. Yawning

5. And the last is sleeping in front of the tv

After that.......... I found my mom get angry in the morning, haha​​. EURO makes the loneliness disappear for a while. Suppose, EURO is on every time * wondering *

SOULVIBE

This crazy thing I experienced about a few weeks ago, the exact date is June 2, 2012. In my high school held "Pentas Seni" with carnaval-themed. I'm very excited to attend the event. You know why? because of its guest star is SOULVIBE. you know SOULVIBE? Okay, I'll tell you a little about this band, this band is about 2 years was able to hypnotize me.

SOULVIBE is a band from Indonesia that was established in 2003. This band consists of 7 members, namely Bayu Adi / @bayu_sv (vocal), Rizqi Ranadireksa / @Abenk_sv (vocal), Ramadan Handyanto Jiwatama / @ramadhanhandy_sv(bass), Mohamad Rizal Caesar / @Caesar_sv  (drums), Adrianto Ario Seto/ @Rio_sv  (synth), Satya Adhika Winasis (guitar) He went out and replaced by Iga Massardi / @igamassardi  and Frans Martatko Filman /@Frans_sv  (keys). This is the pop music genre. The main album is Arti Hadirmu released in 2003, after which Soulvibe (2008), and Antartika (2010). And soon, their fourth album will be released with the single "syalala" and "dilema" (from wikipedia)

The first time I saw their performance on the show while in Depok, Sound and Loud offair. Then Java Jazz 2011, Crevolution 67, Java Jazz 2012, and CofFee 3rd Carnaval :----P

A few days before watching SOULVIBE, I dreamed of taking pictures together with Abenk. I never thought it was a dream come true and not just with Abenk, but with all the personnel of SOULVIBE!!!! except Caesar,  because he has gone ahead.

Check these photos out!

Abenk + me

Rio + me

Iga + me

Bayu + me

Om Frans + me

Handy + me

And next, SOULVIBE on stage...

I can't explain my feelings, extraordinarily pleased. They are very friendly. My desire further is dating one of the personnel of SOULVIBE. hahahahahaha

Interlude

Hello world of mortals!

I'm back again with something new and different but still with a simplicity and my curiosity to explore anything. Oh ya, I almost forgot to introduce myself, my name is Refina and I'm a student of state university of Jakarta. haha who cares?!

Okay I'll tell you something that you've probably never heard before. I've had a valuable person in my life. 

                                 

But now he has disappeared, and bring all my wounds...

                             

I'm tired of holding this wound for months, now time for me to move to find a new life and cover all wounds. Initially it was difficult, but if I did not start from now, I do not even know if I can get up from all these problems and injuries.

I think I'm too stupid to hold it too long. he was gone. and with what happened to me today, I'm sure he would never return. Someone had hit me that I should not behave like this, too prolonged grief. I fell, I had fallen, and only me can feel this pain.

I remembered a sweet promise, which he said with affectionate words as if only myself who is in his mind. but the reality is different, very different. Deeply sorry, I had to forget it and stop thinking about it now. my life is now different from what you know like the first.

Chance to change! changed everything from the current. I'm happy with my life now, without you for sure. good-bye, good to see something new. and let's move move move!